Something That Worries Me

I am a big fan of two things in life… learning and sharing.

Education can come in many different forms… from formal education in a classroom to reading a variety of books from a library. It’s asking questions and listening and asking more questions. It’s looking for new viewpoints.

The other; sharing… volunteering to help others, to donate funds and items that helps others, lending a hand to those who need to help others.

I’m listening to and reading online comments from people who claim to be followers of a teacher who is said to encourage these two ideas but they are doing anything but.

One woman who screamed at others that she will teach her grandchildren to hate “you people”. Family members who talk about others as nothing more than objects. Those who refuse to do one simple thing, like wear a face mask, that could help keep others from getting sick.

I’ve always known that the world was full of selfish, narrow minded people who didn’t care for anyone else but themselves. The fear and guilt they promoted has always been there. But it seems it’s more overt, in your face right now. It’s as if the racist squatter in the White House has given them all permission to be angry and hate and make sure we all know exactly how they feel. Too much of this hate is becoming action meant to send messages of fear to the rest of the country, and the world.

They are not happy that “the others” that they fear and hate are now pushing back. Women with the #MeToo movement, The Pride movements, Black Lives Matter, are three of the largest.

But smaller, quieter ones are also pushing back… older people, fat people, disabled people and non-Christians.

And this last one is one that is usually fueling the strong anger and hate that infect the others…. Conservative Christians are the only group who has the majority and then tries to force fear and guilt because they don’t have a monopoly.

It’s the white, straight, rich, Christian males who guide the rest of the problems. They hate BIPOC. They hate LGBTQ. They fear strong women and only want young obedient submissive Christian women who have enough sense to stay at home and raise babies like they were designed to do. They hate and fear the poor. They hate non-Christians; Muslims, Jews, Pagans, Atheists and even some that self identify as Christian but the conservatives refuse to recognize them as such.

This group also dislikes, if not right out hates, and fears education and helping others. Republicans have for generations insisted that people stand on their own two feet and not expect government aid. Conservatives encourage early marriage so that young people can’t get too smart, especially young women. If they have to have education, they insist it has to be “Christian” education, which isn’t really education. It’s indoctrination.

They don’t learn or know the history of our country, or even of their own religion. They encourage ignorance on both, because “poorly educate” people are easier to control and manage.

So what am I worried about?

I’m worried that conservatives have infiltrated politics at such a rate that it might be hard to turn it around. This is not by accident, this is by design, and has been the goal since the 1950’s when they forced “under God” to be added to the Pledge of Allegiance and on the dollar bill. Both of those were intended to force god onto everyone whether they wanted it or not.

The goal of electing Donald Trump was a simple one. To get conservative judges on the Supreme Court so that they will overturn Roe Vs Wade and outlaw abortions. If they can accomplish that, the next goals of repealing the amendments that give “others” the rights we have… women’s rights, civil rights, gay rights. They would love to take us back to the 1920’s when women, black people and gay people are all second class citizens and have no rights to speak out, to object and to vote. The only ones who would have these rights would be them… white, straight, rich, Christian males.

And if you think I’m overreacting, just look at how way too many people are reacting to the Covid 19 novel coronavirus in this country.

Instead of listening to the experts and learning about the virus and about how to keep from getting it, and more importantly how to help others from getting it, they are only thinking of themselves. They don’t care if anyone else gets sick and dies. As long as it’s not them. They want to go to the beach. They want to get a haircut. They don’t want to wear a mask.

Education and helping others.

Learning and sharing.

These are choices and it’s amazing, it’s appalling, how many people don’t want to do either one.


To The Future

Too many people don’t take the younger generations seriously and they need to start doing so. It’s their future that we are infecting and affecting.
The teenagers of this country pulled a huge “prank” on Donald Trump and his egocentric rallies. I never occurred to Trump that there would be people who wouldn’t jump at the change to attend this insane rally.
These are just the latest. Add in the teens who organized BLM protests all over the planet, kids working for gun control so they can go to school without getting shot like the Parkland students.
And Greta Thunberg and others like her who are activists for climate change.
Teens are getting involved with #MeToo so they don’t have to deal with sexual assault like their mothers and grandmothers.
And they are getting involved with promoting social distancing and face masks during Covid 19.
These kids have had to give up a lot over the past 4-5 years, most recently the high school experiences that the rest of us all took for granted… proms, graduation, time with their friends.
But they hold the future in the palm of their hands and they are NOT going to let a gross dirty old man take it away from them.
Cheers to you, kids…. many of us are rooting for you and your successes!!


I wrote this in April of 2016, but  didn’t share it online until December of that year. It was just a story about what I was afraid would happen if Donald Trump won the election. This was all based on the research I had been doing on Trump since 2010. And he has done many of these things. The clues were all there.



This is just the beginning.. it’s war on the poor (including all those who voted for him), the “poorly educated”, the non-Christians, the wrong Christians, the non-whites, the gays, the older citizens, the disabled, and women….

The candidate that many wanted but most dreaded won the election. A lot of people wondered how, but his supporters didn’t care. As long as he won, that was all that mattered to them.

A lot of people knew that no matter the outcome of this volatile campaign, that there would be hell to pay, with lots of violence, riots and deaths. And that immediately came to pass.

Although he didn’t come right out and say the words, the new president’s many rants led his followers to believe they were of the same mind concerning gun rights and perceived minorities. After the president was sworn in, they took off in packs, heavily armed according to their interpretation of the 2nd amendment, looking for their prey, the first being any people of color. The others would come later.

In large cities and small towns all over the country, groups of white men carrying guns stalked the streets looking for any excuse to shoot someone. And they didn’t have to look far. This is what they had been waiting for and living for; the right to destroy anyone that threatened their way of living. Most of them claimed to be good Christian men, but not all, and those who weren’t, kept quiet about it, all they wanted was the right to kill someone they didn’t like, anyone who didn’t agree with them. America was, after all, a white Christian country and they aimed to take it back to that.. Back when the United States was the great nation it was before. Although, not a one of them could tell you exactly what that meant; before what?

Reports started to flood the network and local news of mass shootings in New York City and Los Angeles and in little podunk towns that no one ever heard of. Shots fired at mostly people of color… Hispanics, African-Americans, Muslims, Eastern Indians, Native Americans, Asian-Americans, with cries of “go back where you came from”. But it was too late. Most of the people shot were now dead, with a few white folks caught in the cross fire.

Reporters scrambled to get where the action was and sent in graphic video footage of the carnage. The public watched in fascinated horror, unable to look away. At first these attacks seemed far away… in places a great distance from their own homes, until suddenly it wasn’t.

Word came by neighbor to neighbor that a local gang had broken down the doors of a mosque and a synagogue in one town and executed every man, woman and child in each building. In another town, a similar attack happened at another mosque and then the “good” Christian men set fire to the building and cheered with joy as it burned to the ground.

Stunned, people all across the country could not tear themselves away from their TV’s and cell phones. They couldn’t believe that this kind of thing was happening in their own backyards. News stations started condemning the attacks as well as the President for not saying anything about them. It seemed that in his denial of Americans dying all over the nation, the President was condoning and encouraging the small self-described militias for carrying out the carnage.

When the President finally did address the issue, it was not the shootings or militias that he threatened, it was the media. He warned the press to watch their words and in no way criticize the president and his administration. When members of the press reminded him of the freedom of speech that the constitution protects, the president went ballistic and screamed that HE was the constitution and he would revoke the freedom of speech “just like that”, as he snapped his fingers.

Members of the press voiced their outraged at the president’s audacity. Angry, they picketed the White House and presented their disgust on social media. The president reacted by having the most vocal of the press arrested for sedition.

Then he insisted, demanded, that a new bill repealing the Freedom of Speech amendment in the constitution be passed. Most members of the press thought this would never happen, but they failed to take into account that the president’s own party, all people (read: men) made up the majority in both the House and Senate. When two members of the Supreme Court suddenly became ill and died with days of one another, the president nominated two replacements that were approved so quickly, most people were unaware that it even happened. He had no trouble getting this bill passed as well.

People all over the country were stunned, in a state of shock and not just reporters and newscasters. Never in the history of this country had anyone even suggested that taking away someone’s freedom of speech. While it was true that many people used this right for selfish motives and didn’t understand what free speech actually meant, nor the history behind it; education was the better solution, not outright banning.

Some TV stations and newspapers, whose whole focus was to criticize the president and the government, suddenly, over night, found themselves closed down and locked out of the building where they worked. Other news organizations quickly edited their content to make sure their reports were pro-government, even if it meant lying and making up stories.

Shock over current events slowly dissolved to fear and then acceptance, although most were unnerved about it. They had their own families to worry about; their homes; their jobs; their lives. They just couldn’t voice their fears and frustrations and forget about their personal concerns and responsibilities. Surely, it’s only a few anarchists that were causing the problems, not real, everyday American citizens like themselves. Just the trouble makers. Law-abiding citizens wouldn’t have these same problems, no need to be concerned. They were true Americans… not immigrants. They attended church every Sunday. They donated to charity once a year.

Calls for registry for Muslims and Jews were issued, then extended to Gays, Atheists and Pagans. First needing papers, then detainment, then deportment and finally extermination.
If you round out the popular to just a small 10% of each minority group, such as:
10% of the country is Muslim
10% of the country is Jewish
10% of the country is LGBT
10% of the country are Atheists
10% of the country are Pagans
You’ve just destroyed 50% of the country’s population.

After that, calls for internment camps, prison island and extermination of any one of color, of any minority race; African, Asian, Native American, Hispanic.

Following the same equation, you’ve just destroyed another 40% of the remaining citizens of the country.

Basically 90% of the country is gone to satisfy the remaining 10% who are white, straight and Christian.

Half of those are women. Taking away birth control, abortion, personal autonomy, the right to vote, work and go to school, and male entitlement of sexual assault and rape, and you are left with 5% of the country making all of the choices and decisions for what is left of humanity in this country.

Now you have taken away the majority of people’s rights of freedom of speech, freedom of religion and freedom to exist. You have taken away the rights of women to be free and equal people and reduced them down to nothing more than baby-making slaves.

What do you have left? Is your country “great” again? Let’s see…

Women at the mercy of men’s lust with no way to protect themselves, no way to make a living, most likely left pregnant, traumatized, homeless and hungry. Bringing in countless, unwanted and uncared for children living on the streets. Which will lead to more crime and more killings as it comes down to the survival of the fittest.

Not enough for anyone to eat because the Straight, White, Christian Men have destroyed the work force that was used do the planting and harvesting of crops, deliver the produce for processing, and finally to grocery stores to sell. No drivers for the trucks, no one working in the plants, no one selling in the stores. All of these businesses have gone out of business, closed and boarded up.

Just to feed the control and power of their God named Greed.


I wrote this last year, never dreaming just how bad things would get in just a year.

May 17, 2019

My faith in humanity is at an all time low. I didn’t think it could get any lower after Trump moved into the White House. I was proven wrong. Watching the abortion laws change in so many states so quickly had me question what is wrong with this country. And that’s when it hit me. This is all by design. The Republicans know these laws are essentially unenforceable and they don’t care. It’s a means to an end.

This all is part of a very big plan that goes back to World War 2… to make the United States an authoritarian theocracy. I’m sure at the time they never dreamed it would take this long. It started with forcing the government to add “In God We Trust” on American currency and “Under God” in the Pledge of Allegiance in the early 50’s using the fear of Communism as the catalyst (“better off dead than red”).

They learned quickly that the best way to influence politics was to become politicians. Many conservative Christians studied law, not to make a difference and help people, but to help the right’s ultimate agenda; to influence their Christian ideology. For years, decades, they have quietly worked their way up the various political offices until they reaches ones of power. Mitch McConnell is a prime example of this. They knew just what words to say to convince voters that they as the favored candidate should be their pick. Trump quickly learned how to do this too. I have been shocked at how many Trump voters voted him just basically on what he said and how he said it .. the facts and issues, not to mention is his history, didn’t come into play in any way.

Conservatives have been planning this for 40 years. They just needed everything to align up perfectly.. the right person in the White House, the right people in the Supreme Court, the right party in each state’s house and senate. Don’t think they can overturn Roe vs Wade? Sadly, they have a very good chance of doing so. And that’s just the beginning. And then they chip away at all of the other rights they don’t agree with and haven’t for a very long time… gay marriage, the 19th Amendment, the 14th Amendment, Jim Crow laws, separation of church and state and the creation of a national religion.

These abortion laws have nothing to do with faith or religion. Nothing to do with saving babies or caring about children’s welfare, and everything to do with control. Ironically, it’s not just control over women, but control over poor black women as well. The issue of abortion as a social issue for the church is two fold… controlling the sexuality of women, but also forcing white women to have more white babies so that black women won’t win that race. And if poor black women die in childbirth or from botched back alley abortions? That’s no big loss to them. In fact, if white women die of the same thing, it’s still not a big deal. They will just make more of children and half of those will grow up to be women so they can try again. And if Catholic priests and Protestant clergy sexually abuse and harm children? Again, that’s not a problem for them. All they care about is control and power. And marginalizing women, people of color and sexual identities is a way to get and keep that control and power. And the church is a master of using religion to control the masses. It’s been going on even longer than there has been Christianity. Fear and guilt is power. Power is control. It’s no accident that more and more countries are coming under the control of authoritarian dictator regimes. And it’s exactly what the GOP wants, and has always wanted, for the United States. They just let Donald Trump think it’s all his idea.

If everything continues to align the way they want it to, this has a very good chance of coming true. The right wants the lawsuits… that they can tie up in lower courts until they are passed on up to the higher courts until it’s finally sent to the Supreme Court and right into Brett Kavanaugh’s willing hands. It’s not accident this is happening. It’s all by design. And has been planned for decades. They have a very good chance of overturning Roe vs Wade and then enacting a total abortion ban on the entire country. Don’t think it can happen? We didn’t think Donald Trump had a snowballs chance in hell of winning the Presidential election either, but here we are.

And if you think that the conservative Christian Republicans will rest on their laurels of abolishing abortion, think again. This is just the beginning. With it will go marriage equality and gay marriage laws will be revoked. Next will women’s rights to education, careers and the right to vote as they eliminate the 19th Amendment and right behind that the 14th Amendment with gives people of color the right to vote, among other rights. That will bring back Jim Crow laws and segregation and there are even calls to legalize slavery again. Why do you think very little is done to stop sex trafficking? That is another form of slavery that the right wants to see continue, along with legalizing rape. There are people who want to make sure that only Christians can vote in US elections. All non-Christians including Atheists, Pagans, Muslim, Jews, Buddhists, and Hindus would be forbidden to vote, let alone run for office. And by Christian, they mean white straight male Christians. So that would leave out women, people of color and LGBTQ. By the way, to conservatives that even means Catholic. A Catholic president? No way!! A black president? You’re kidding. A woman president? Pfftt.. A gay president? Perish the thought.

For those conservative women politicians who are complicit in all of this? They are also a means to an end. Once their usefulness is done, they will be replaced. And they don’t even see it coming.

I am on a lot other sites on the Internet in addition to Facebook and Twitter. In what were once Liberal strongholds and fairly safe places to post, they are now being infiltrated by trolls. You’ve heard of Russian bots and trolls that do this in all aspects of online life, mostly to influence elections, well now we have Christian trolls doing the same thing, for the same reason. They have learned well from their Russian comrades. They go in to chastise posts, question attitudes, and sow seeds of doubt. Basically gaslighting. People who pose as Liberals, Democrats, Atheists, Pagans, LGBTQ, who are anything but.

Liberal Democrats have several things working against them. The most is their general belief of goodness in human nature. But also it’s Political Correctness, Apathy and Complacency. We tend to believe that everyone thinks the way we do… that if we are caring and nice the good with prevail, and that someone else will take care it. And that’s exactly what the conservative right are counting on. Nearly 50% of the population didn’t even vote in the 2016 Presidential election, and a good number of those were white Liberal Democrats. Many used the excuses that they just were not into politics or the issues didn’t affect them so they didn’t care. This is a clear picture of privilege.

I never dreamed I would see this happening in my lifetime, that it even would happen at all. But it is. I am scared, angry and frustrated. And I’m losing faith in humanity. Even if good can eventual prevail, at what cost? What kind of damage? Which will take generations to fix.
I’ve had people ask me why does this even affect me. I am past child bearing age, I can’t get pregnant or need to worry about getting an abortion. My answer is this. My empathy covers more than just myself. I care about the welfare of others (and why don’t they?). I also know what it’s like to be molested by men I was suppose to trust. I know what it’s like to be brutally raped. I know what it’s like to be judged because I was raped. I know what it’s like to become pregnant against my will. I know what’s it like to have to make the agonizing decision to continue a pregnancy or end it (twice). I know what it’s like to have a miscarriage and have people question why. I know what it’s like to lose a child. This is why it matters to me.

My Views

I know a lot of people avoid topics of religion and politics on their blogs. I use to. I don’t anymore. When Donald Trump became “president”, it stopped being about politics and became about attitude, behavior and beliefs.

I started doing research on Donald Trump in 2010, long before he decided to run for president the first time, in 2012. I didn’t much care for what I saw, but I was intrigued. At that time he seemed almost rational, but in a very sleazy way.

The more I learned about him, the less I liked. But I never thought he ever had a chance of winning the election. In retrospect, I don’t think he did win. He rigged instead. And based on the research I’ve done on his life, this is nothing new for him. He hates to fail and will stack the deck anyway he can to always win.. his idea of winning, even if it’s not legal or ethical.

His misogynist, sexist attitude and racist behavior just made things worth and his ageism and ableism nailed it for me. He was a slimeball who just getting worse on his version of success. He didn’t care who it hurt, as long as he had money and power.

So I celebrate the fact that Donald Trump was officially impeached today. But I’m also a realist and know that not much will come from this. This impeachment is a black mark on his presidency and I doubt he cares. But history will remember him much different than he thinks and hopes.

This is how I will remember him.

War on Christmas

They just don’t give up on this crap.

I am getting so sick of seeing Fox News and everyone in the Trump circle insisting that Obama and other Democrat presidents banned Christmas from the White House, because of course, we all know that all Liberal Democrats are godless people. Only some of us are.

And they “thank God for Donald Trump bringing Christmas back and making it okay to say Merry Christmas.”

It’s never been NOT okay to say Merry Christmas.

Obama didn’t ban Christmas and no, he is not a Muslim from Kenya. You can thank Donald Trump for that tidbit too.

No other president ever banned Christmas from the White House (see attached pictures).

If Christmas was banned, or even discouraged, would we being seeing 6 weeks of gift buying encouragement, non-stop Christmas music, lights draped everywhere, and every church on every corner planning elaborate Christmas programs?

If Christmas was banned, wouldn’t everyone have to work on Dec 25th?

You do notice that isn’t happening anywhere, especially in the United States.

There is no “War on Christmas”. This was a selfish attempt from Fox news to generate higher ratings. They thrive on controversy and depend on their viewers to believe everything they say. We all know that Trump does. If you believe this, you’ve been conned and gaslighted.

Christmas is as much a secular holiday as it is a religious holiday and it’s celebrated by people of many different cultures and nationalities. Christmas is NOT just an American holiday. And it’s isn’t solely a Christian holiday. Study your history!!

Anyone who believes otherwise have forgotten two important lessons from their childhood…

1. Share with others.
2. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.


I read an article by a woman who suffered a miscarriage but the Catholic hospital refused to give her a D&C as they equated that as an abortion, telling her that “God will take care of her”.

This whole issue has been bothering me for sometime. This is the kind of situation that Trump was ranting about when he said NYC passed a law saying they can “rip out and abort babies up until their due date”.

He just proved his lack of knowledge and understanding about the word “abort” and his followers and prolifers all believe him and agree.

The word “abort” simply means to “end” and in regards to pregnancy there are different definitions of what this means.

An “induced abortion” is what most people think about when they see the word “abortion”, the kind of thing that happens at abortion clinics, where viable fetuses can be removed from the womb. There are dozens of reasons why a mother or couple would elect to do this… everything from being raped to financial distress to not emotionally able to cope with a child (or another child) to severe mental or physical defects of the fetus and more. It is not an easy choice to make. I had to make it twice.

“Spontaneous abortion” is another name for miscarriage, and yes there are people out there who will blame the mother for having a miscarriage. I’ve had five miscarriages including one that has another “abortion” name…

“Missed abortion”. This is when the fetus dies and the mother carries a dead baby inside of her uterus until it spontaneous aborts or the mother has a procedure to remove the fetus and afterbirth, usually a D&C. My baby died at 14 weeks and I miscarried at 24 weeks and still needed a D&C to remove the placenta.

This is the situation that Trump, prolifers and too many conservative Christians just don’t get.

The human body is not a machine that runs like clock work and can be predicted.

From the beginning of pregnancy at conception, through gestation, pregnancy, labor and deliver, hundreds of things can and do go wrong.

Not just miscarriages, but stillborn babies and wombs that cannot clean themselves out “as God intended”. Pregnancy is about science, not religion.

Trump insists that the laws in NYC allows doctors to go in and “abort” a baby at any time, up until the due date. But that is called BIRTH, not abortion. At that point, killing a viable baby is also not abortion, it’s infanticide.

What this law is doing, is allowing doctors to go in and provide D&C procedures for women who suffer a miscarriage or missed abortion, or even stillbirth, and remove the after affects of the pregnancy that the body couldn’t remove on it’s own for one reason or another. Refusing to allow this is basically saying a woman’s life is not important and if she dies from sepsis, a totally preventable death, then oh, well.. it’s God’s Will.