I find with getting older, I need more structure and routine. And if my “routine” is altered in anyway, I have a hard time getting back to it.
That happened today. I had all kinds of ideas about what to write about. I have a long list of blog topics to write about. But my routine was disrupted by a power outage and I have been unable to regain any kind of focus; of what to think let alone what to write.
These days, it doesn’t take much for that happen. Being in pain is my usual excuse. Having to interrupt my day for a doctor’s appointment. Not sleeping well. When the power goes out, it seems to make things even worse; I’m cold, I’m hungry, I’m frustrated. Even when the power finally comes back on, I find it hard to get back into my routine; I find it hard to get warm; I find it hard to find any kind of satisfaction. I find it hard to find the words I want to use when I finally do sit down to write. So I ramble as I am right now. But at least I’m writing, right?
I am too dependent on modern conveniences, like electricity and my Internet connection. I prefer to work on a desktop that is connected with a landline. I do have a laptop, but it’s not as comfortable to work with. I realize I need to get wifi so that I can use the laptop when the power goes out. But then I wouldn’t have any excuse, any reason to not write, now would I?
I also just got a new cell phone, after learning my old one wouldn’t work after Dec 31st. That one I rarely used. This one could end up being a bad habit. I don’t want to be one of those who never looks up from their phone. It’s bad enough that I never look up from my desktop.
I hyperfocus on the desktop. I need to focus on the laptop and cell phone so that I can come into the 21st century. I need to learn to refocus on what I’m doing when things don’t go my way. I suspect that’s going to happen more and more as I continue to get old.
Most of all, I need to focus on my goals and my writing.